Words and thoughts

Words are very unnecessary. They can only do harm.

So I’m told I read too much into things. I realize I think way too much. But to these thoughts, what’s the outlet? Words. But again, is that possibly the best solution to being such an over thinker? Words once spoken, can’t be taken back. They pierce through your bones like an arrow going past a heavy heart.  To not speak, is cluttering your head with all these endless conclusions, which really aren’t definite endings to a topic, but a start to another never ending ride into an ocean of decisions. Decisions which we feel are going to go wrong, still we make them.

He asks me, “Why are you like this?”

A simple question. Inquisitiveness.  He knows the answer, yet he asks. Is it mockery on me being a little crazy? No. If that answer is so simple, then why am I thinking as to why he asks me this simple question?

“It’s not me. It’s how you are.” That’s right. Blame it on him.  But it isn’t all me, right? Gosh, I cross the line of what might be the presumed end of how far a person can think. It’s not insecurity, no.  Just, being possessive. Again, that’s how I am.

Words can be like knifes, they can cut you open.

The walls I’ve built, to keep myself safe, safe from all the lies, betrayal and hurt. Maybe that’s why I think so much. Caution is the word that surmounts my head, overpowering all emotions in this heart. I know the day I let my guard down, I’ll be back to square one.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m not afraid. I just need a little time. Time to find answers to all these endless questions.

 I hope I can find in you a person who can see through my walls

I hope you’ll catch me coz I’m already falling

I’ll never let our love get so close

You put your arms around me and I’m home.

Can you give that much little piece of your life and let this girl sort her thoughts and self out or will you let her go just like everyone always has?